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I am 22 years old. I am married to a dead man.
My husband and soulmate is "Pancakes" (his actual identity is discussed in great detail in this journal)
I live with two other deadboys; Skank and Dezzy. I refer to them as "my deadboys" and "the gay dead man entourage"

Love...we think about it, sing about it, dream about it, lose sleep worrying about it. When we dont have it we search for it, when we discover it, we dont know what to do with it, when we have it, we fear losing it. It is the constant source of pleasure and pain but we cant predict which it will be from one moment to the next. It is a short word easy to spell, difficult to define, impossible to live without. you can look all over for love but you wont find it because you cant see love, you must feel it." -Jenny

"Love is everything it's cracked up to be...it really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for..."

Friends only.

-have something like an open mind
-if you have a problem with me fucking tell me, don't talk behind my back anonymously
-there are things in here that are open and honest and may strike you as "crazy" and if you can't handle that then just walk away right now.
-What is written in here STAYS in here, commenting to this post means you agree to keep what is written between us. Nothing in this journal LEAVES this journal, get it? (Unfriending me to talk shit behind my back doesn't break that contract and I do log IP addresses so think really fucking hard before you do anything stupid)

This means IF YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE A PROBLEM WITH DISCUSSION ABOUT SPIRIT COMPANIONS AND THE LIKE PLEASE DON'T ADD THIS JOURNAL I've gotten outed gods know how many times by assholes that read this journal and, though my intro page IS PRETTY DAMN SPECFIIC still don't recognise that this journal IS ABOUT MY RELATIONSHIP with a SPIRIT.
If you CAN'T HANDLE THIS, don't add my journal.

This is to discuss one aspect of my life that is very personal. I stupidly trusted too many people on the friends list on cXm and things got out that I didn't want getting out so I'm using this journal (and ONLY this journal) to discuss my spiritual life.

Maintainer of famous_sc (co-mod is the unstoppable cantstopthedawn
Comms I recommend: spiritcompanion, scary_stories, hauntings



testimonials

-"You two are the best things that ever happened to eachother period the end. I don't care what anyone says, you two are perfect for eachother." -_ilovenirvana27

-"K loves you like whoa. Know how I can tell? I was reading through your old entries in order to get to know you and each time you talked about how you loved him, I would just grin like happiness spilled off the computer and on to me. Anytime I read about other people's boyfriends/husbands, I am a little cynical because I can tell that the emotion isn't all there. Not with y'all, though. My cheeks hurt a little from smiling so much :)"
-"Since I met you, I have perceived him to be a wonderful spirit, but very protective of you. Which is honestly a good thing"
-"Y'all are incredibly lucky to have eachother" -a_reverie

-"Your world would be very different if you didn't have a gay dead man entourage, you should thank us." -badass_skanksta

-"what you & k share is beautiful. i hope i can have what you guys have someday." -bloodyskies

-"Aww, you two are wonderful together."
-"Man, some freaky ass shit happens to you Paige." -burnmyeyes75

-"this made me cry (well almost). I honestly believe you, and I'm glad K was able to find some peace and be happy, because that is what he has done for me all these years. I'm glad the both of you are happy."
-"I don't think it is crazy at all. If I were to come back as a spirit I would deffinitly come to someone like you."
-"you two are out of control." -cayleighb

-"I'm so happy for you two. I can now officially tell that you two were meant to be together. You both are two extremely beautiful people and together you make the best and most loving couple. You're each other's support systems."
-"I love Paige and I've always believed her and hell I've talked to K myself. I've never seen him because I haven't seen her offline but I believe her 120%" -concertina419

-"I know her and I've always told her that, while I don't see it, I believe her. Even if I didn't believe her... it wouldn't matter. She's not hurting anyone (like you said) so just live and let live"
-"I do know, though, that it's a fact that this makes you happy and thats real enough for me and that's all that matters." -djstatick

-"people always get what they deserve, and you two deserve each other"
(to k)-"You and Paige of two of the most amazing people I have ever met. It takes so much more than I have to do what you two are doing." -endofyourrope

-"I mean okayyyy I get that K is a rockstar and therefore as a rockstar he must not exist in the spiritual plane. But I mean people can open their minds for ONE MICROSECOND to think that it's a little possible that K- one human being, might fall in love with Paige- another human being and they live happily ever after in a house of pancakes."
-"I know she's not insane because (as I've said x1000) I've seen him with her, before I ever said a word to her I saw him sitting next to her on the bench outside of the student center. I went up to her and said "uh I hate to alarm you but K___ ______ is sitting next to you" and she started laughing and told me all about it."
-"How can a fantasy make Paige's heart start beating after she fuckin ODed on coke and DIED for thirty seconds? Oh answer me that wise ones. (I was there, I saw it)"
-"What you guys have is fucking incredible, if I'm ever loved just half as much as you two love each other I know I'll die happy. What you guys have reaches beyond anything I've ever seen in my life and youknow what, I know for a FUCKIN FACT that it's real.
When I talk to one of you without the other one around it's like talking to like one half of a person that was chopped in half by me, you just keep sitting there wondering where the other half went, it's incomplete. The two of you though. Damn you're fuckin dynamic.
" -eyes_of_kali

-"Everything I have to say was already said. You two are beautiful together, one of those couples that I have to know, have to be aquainted with to be assured that this type of love really does exist. You're so lucky you found each other. Even though, as I said, I don't know you two that well but from this entry alone it's so obvious how fucking perfect you two are for each other. It's really, really touching. I hope I can find someone who makes me half as happy as K does you, Paige." -fearnot

-"i'm not really a believer in this sort of thing, but how could you possible make all of this up? Something tells me that you aren't."
-"what you have to say is really kind of interesting. without being open-minded, i can see how people think it's crazy. but i think it's a gift. you've got a great gift." -heather9988

-"im so happy for you, that you two have both found someone that you really love." -im_so_surly

-"I would say that the fact that you question it on occasion goes to showing you that you aren't crazy." -kdc4evr

-"Jesus. I don't even know how to respond to this. This is the kind of stuff that makes me feel like maybe humanity isn't lost.. that true love really is out there. Who cares what plane it's on? If I can find half the amount of love that you guys have for each other, I'll be happy. You two truly deserve to be happy together. You're beautiful together. This has to be proof that things DO happen for a reason."
-"You guys are amazing together. I really wish I could express it better in words, but there are none. Your love is just so beautiful, and so pure.. I hope i can have an amazing relationship like you guys one day. Even if it were filled with half the love that you guys have for each other, i'd be happy:)"
-I've never in all of my time knowing you [which, granted, hasn't been TOO long...but still] questioned it. Never have I had a reason to question it. As soon as I found I thought "...well that all makes sense somehow". and you know what? It does.
-"oh, and I hate calling couples cute because it's annoying but you guys are very...awww."
-"You and K have something absolutely, truly amazing and beautiful. and you both know that."
-"I'm glad you and Kurt have each other. You deserve each other. and you guys make the most annoyingly adorable cutest couple ever!"
-"Dude you guys are too cute for words. STOP BEING ONE OF THOSE COUPLES" -kfpandas

-"I want to be loved like that"> -kriskaylee2

-"No one is "normal." Ain't no such animal." -leswamp

-"Your husband is scary sexy. More scary than sexy."
"Aharhar, what a romantic way to meet. Kind of." -magictoymissing

-"At times, it maybe difficult to differentiate since you share the same body. In short, inseperable(pun intended)!"
-"From my experience, corny ones prove to be the most memorable" -makulit

-"It's shocking, but wonderful at the same time. It might not make you smile, like flowers from someone you love would, but it'll make you know that through EVERYTHING there is, death, killing, drugs, sickness...he's there and he WILL be there forever." -maniacsc

(to K)-"For what it's worth, I have a huge amount of belief and faith in you (and her, but I specifically refer to you being who she says you are). Your energy is totally right on, it's very, very clear to me, and is some of the strongest I've encountered. Plus this guy I know also vouches for you." -meridjet

-"ALl I feel is good when I read that. That was a wonderful expression of love. I hope you two continue to take care of one another. It's good to have another person to live through. One of the best things to share is a soul and a heart. You two got that down pat."
"Love is a powerful thing. it defies logic." -mightydubkat

-"I would feel special, its not everyday you find someone who loves you enough to kill for you" -mistressmelissa

-"You guys are the epitome of a perfect relationship."
-"I don't know Paige very well. I only read her journal - never talk to her outside of LJ - but it's like I don't even question it. I just know that it's real. Why would she put up with all this crap she gets if she's just faking it?" -debola

-"there should be a 'sleeping with spirits 101 guide.... but I'm still waiting for the 'being a rockstar 101' guide to come out so fuck that".
-"I love you so much it hurts, but it's a beautiful pain"
-"I don't know how you do it but you always make me live again."
-"I'm your woman (the kind with male parts)"
-"I love you, I'll always love you and you'll always be my girl. ALWAYS. There's no one more fucking beautiful than you in my eyes, there's no one smarter or cuter or funnier or sexier than you to me because I fucking love you, I always have and I always will. Every time I see you I almost can't breathe because I love you so much and I'm so lucky to fucking have you." -pancake_of_doom

-"I guarantee when I meet Paige I will sense his presence"
-"K CAME TO HER. He found her, and he chose her, and he fell in love with her" -rantfactory

(To K)-"you are the bestest spirit husband ever" -the_laina

-"It doesn't seem so unreasonable that the spirit of k___ ______ is your husband. To be quite honest, at first I was a bit skeptical, but you seem so sincere, and are obviously an intelligent woman, so, though I am sure you need no validation, for what it's worth I believe you." -xx_lilim_xx

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